busy busy!!

I know, I have not blogged in a few days!! Things have been nuts.  We are getting ready for our big move.  You know, no one is perfect, I am NO WHERE near it.  It's really hard to try to make yourself a better person when people hold you down with your past. 

" One reason God created time was so that there would be a place to bury the failures of the past."

I try to not live in the past everyday.  Some days I fail at this.  It's so hard to not judge people on their past.  People make mistakes, and hopefully you learn and grow from them.  Without these trials, what would be the reason of life? It would be incredibly boring and too perfect.  Life is not meant to be perfect.  It makes us stronger.  

 I am guilty of judging people on their past, and I try to get better at this.  It's life judging a book by its cover or by what everyone else thinks.  I have had a pretty rough past year, doing things I am not proud of in the least bit, It has been a struggle to forgive myself and move past it.  It's harder when someone says mean things, like you havnt changed.  This is exspecially hurtful when you have done many things to change, like I said I am no where near perfect, I try to be a good friend, sister, daughter, mother, wife and so on.... Somedays its hard to be nice to people, I get in a lot of funks :/ but atleast I try.  I TRY I TRY I TRY! I strive to be a better person..

Funny, today in church our lesson kind of revolved around this.....

 Those who are committed to improvement, break chains by having the courage to try.

These "chains" are very heavy, temptations can be so hard to deny.  I have the courage to try.  I DO! I have been trying everyday.  I still need plenty of improvement, but who doesnt? really? are you perfect?  Anything worth a damn ain't easy to get; anything easy to get ain't worth a damn. We have to work at everything we do.  Something I want to start doing with my kids, is if they do something naughty or maddening, instead of getting angry ect... Give them a hug, tell them I love them, and calmly explain what they did wrong.  I love my kids, they are really the best blessings ever.  I can't imagine my life without them.  I live for them.

I know, im rambling. I just really have been thinking a lot.  Hopefully I will keep up with this blog. It really does help. I also want to thank Ben's family.  I feel like I don't thank them enough for everything.  They are truly amazing people.  They inspire me everyday.  I am really going to miss them.  They would do anything for anyone.  They go above and beyond.  His parents are simply amazing people.  I love them very much! :) Sarah, is like a Big sister I never had, I can go to her for everything.  She always has the greatest advice and knows just what I need to hear.  She knows how to "open my eyes" and I'm so grateful for that because sometimes I need a wake up call! :) Shes such an amazing person! <3

I miss my mom so much its killing me.  It's so hard being away from your best friends... Just like Stephanie.... I think I bring up a story of something we did or said about everyday lol She has been such an amazing friend to me... She never gave up on me :) I love her little family like they are apart of mine. 




LIFE IS A GIFT, MAKE THE MOST OF IT.
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is fragile, hold it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
- Unknown

Busy as a Bee!

wow, today has been a very busy day.  We woke up laid in bed with the kiddos awhile.  Got dressed and headed straight out to Idaho Falls for some shopping.  We got a Mobigo for James, he was so excited :) We went an ate at Olive Garden with Ben's sister Sarah! I love spending time with her, she has always been such an amazing sister and friend.  After that we went to Walmart, very dangerous when you are us LOL.  We got somethings to hopefully help with this potty training business with the boys, and let them pick out their own undies :) James was so excited!! I also went to Barnes and Noble, going to start reading the book The Help, and got the boys somemore pre-K workbooks.  Kmart had an AWESOME sale of 50% off their kids clothes, so I got each of the kids an outfit for a total of $19! pretty proud of myself there LOL it was hard not to get them more.  I love spoiling them, I love seeing their smiling faces :) Right now the boys are in their room as quiet as can be playing their Mobigos :) They are getting so smart so fast. I am so proud of them! My little baby girl is starting to eat 6 ounces now.  Now, shes growing too fast!  It's really hard to say i am done having kids at 22.  I know, I have 3, and thats a good number, but I have ALWAYS wanted a BIG family, like 4-6 kids lol CRAZY i know, Just been a dream of mine forever, I love kids, its so fun to watch them grow and learn.. They amaze me everyday.  Guess we will see what God has planned for us, I have no intentions on rushing into having more kids right now, like I said I am only 22. So we shall see :) My family is prolly thinking im nuts! Like my mom always says "You have to raise them not me, so whats the use in getting upset?" Thats what im saying, I dont understand why people make it their business to tell me how many kids I should have, since when did I ask you to take care of them, as long as we can provide for them, whats the harm?  Ok, I am rambling again. :) Goodnight ALL <3

Sleepy Tuesday!

I have been so tired today.  I don't understand why, little miss has slept really good 2 nights in a row.  I have taken really long naps for the past few days, and I feel miserable.  Hopefully it subsides soon, I hate being lazy.  I do love when Madilynn snuggles me though.  She is so warm and snuggly. It is exactly 2 weeks till we move.  So close, we need to start packing and getting our stuff together.  Tomorrow we are going to hang out with Ben's sister Sarah for a little while, she has been so busy with school its hard to spend time with her.  I know she has plenty of homework, but we are bugging her anyways :) As I sit and stare at my little family watching tv, I just wonder how I possibly deserved to be so blessed?  I wasn't the perfect child or anything.  I am not complaining, just pondering.  God truly is GREAT! <3

1/23/12

Today I got a new haircut.  Been kind of a crazy day.  I didn't think I wanted to chop my hair off, but the more I contemplated it, the more I wanted to.  My daughter is constantly eating my hair when I hold her, and soon she will be pulling it.  So why not?  I told my sister-in-law Juli to just surprise me.  So she had me close my eyes the whole time.  I was scared what it may look like it, and hoping she really did like me. haha  Well, when I finally got to see it, I was happy with it.  She showed me a few ways to do it.  Now I have no excuse to be lazy.  I fell 2 lbs lighter, I have so much hair.  My daughter has been a little cranky today, which is unusual, shes typically a great baby.  Guess they all have their days.  Ethan has been a little cranky today, maybe we just all needed a nap.  It's been kind of a gloomy day, its cloudy and snowing.  I really don't like snow.  I don't  know why, just not my thing at all.  Pretty soon we will be packing up and moving back to Kentucky from Idaho.  I am very nervous/excited/scared/sad.  I am starting to meet a lot of great people here, but I also miss everyone back east.  Jobs just seem more prominent there.  At least that is what I am hoping, seems to be working out so far.  Guess we will see, just pray for us to figure out what and where we are supposed  to be.  Life has been so confusing and so frustrating since we got out of the Army.  I wont lie when I say I miss not having to choose where we live and what we do.  It was so much easier when the Army chose for us.  I just want my family to be happy where ever we end up.  As long as we are together that's all I care about.  It's hard that we are from different sides of the country, his family wants us here and mine wants us there,  kind of makes you want to to pick somewhere no one is.  We both really like living in Kentucky, well back east.  So hopefully this is the right choice.  Sorry, I am rambling on and on.  This is just the best way for me to "talk".  My emotions have been crazy lately, which means I have been frustrating my husband more and more.  So I think this will be a better release.

Good Ole' Days!

Today, I am reminiscing, looking at old pictures and what not.  I came across some pictures that reminded me it had been 4 years since his R&R from Iraq, this was the only 18 days of our married life together we lived in our own apartment before kids.  Once he returned from Iraq we had a 6 week old son, Ethan.  I don't regret how things have turned out, but often wonder what it would have been like if we would have waited a few years to try for a baby.  Life would definitely be less chaotic.  I always wonder if we would have went on vacations, and visited places I have always wanted to go.  Giving up those adventures, meant we got a whole new assortment of adventures. :)

Madilynn's Blessing Day!

Today we blessed out daughter at our home.  It was amazing to see our family come together for such an amazing event.  She is so beautiful and truly a blessing to us. I cannot imagine life without her.  I hope I can teach her how to choose the right and grow into a wonderful young woman.  I hope that I can be as good of a mother to her as my mom is still to me.  My mother is my best friend and I hope we can have that strong relationship.. I love you Madilynn, Ethan, & James. Mommy wouldnt be the same without you.