busy busy!!

I know, I have not blogged in a few days!! Things have been nuts.  We are getting ready for our big move.  You know, no one is perfect, I am NO WHERE near it.  It's really hard to try to make yourself a better person when people hold you down with your past. 

" One reason God created time was so that there would be a place to bury the failures of the past."

I try to not live in the past everyday.  Some days I fail at this.  It's so hard to not judge people on their past.  People make mistakes, and hopefully you learn and grow from them.  Without these trials, what would be the reason of life? It would be incredibly boring and too perfect.  Life is not meant to be perfect.  It makes us stronger.  

 I am guilty of judging people on their past, and I try to get better at this.  It's life judging a book by its cover or by what everyone else thinks.  I have had a pretty rough past year, doing things I am not proud of in the least bit, It has been a struggle to forgive myself and move past it.  It's harder when someone says mean things, like you havnt changed.  This is exspecially hurtful when you have done many things to change, like I said I am no where near perfect, I try to be a good friend, sister, daughter, mother, wife and so on.... Somedays its hard to be nice to people, I get in a lot of funks :/ but atleast I try.  I TRY I TRY I TRY! I strive to be a better person..

Funny, today in church our lesson kind of revolved around this.....

 Those who are committed to improvement, break chains by having the courage to try.

These "chains" are very heavy, temptations can be so hard to deny.  I have the courage to try.  I DO! I have been trying everyday.  I still need plenty of improvement, but who doesnt? really? are you perfect?  Anything worth a damn ain't easy to get; anything easy to get ain't worth a damn. We have to work at everything we do.  Something I want to start doing with my kids, is if they do something naughty or maddening, instead of getting angry ect... Give them a hug, tell them I love them, and calmly explain what they did wrong.  I love my kids, they are really the best blessings ever.  I can't imagine my life without them.  I live for them.

I know, im rambling. I just really have been thinking a lot.  Hopefully I will keep up with this blog. It really does help. I also want to thank Ben's family.  I feel like I don't thank them enough for everything.  They are truly amazing people.  They inspire me everyday.  I am really going to miss them.  They would do anything for anyone.  They go above and beyond.  His parents are simply amazing people.  I love them very much! :) Sarah, is like a Big sister I never had, I can go to her for everything.  She always has the greatest advice and knows just what I need to hear.  She knows how to "open my eyes" and I'm so grateful for that because sometimes I need a wake up call! :) Shes such an amazing person! <3

I miss my mom so much its killing me.  It's so hard being away from your best friends... Just like Stephanie.... I think I bring up a story of something we did or said about everyday lol She has been such an amazing friend to me... She never gave up on me :) I love her little family like they are apart of mine. 




LIFE IS A GIFT, MAKE THE MOST OF IT.
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is fragile, hold it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
- Unknown