Today I got a new haircut. Been kind of a crazy day. I didn't think I wanted to chop my hair off, but the more I contemplated it, the more I wanted to. My daughter is constantly eating my hair when I hold her, and soon she will be pulling it. So why not? I told my sister-in-law Juli to just surprise me. So she had me close my eyes the whole time. I was scared what it may look like it, and hoping she really did like me. haha Well, when I finally got to see it, I was happy with it. She showed me a few ways to do it. Now I have no excuse to be lazy. I fell 2 lbs lighter, I have so much hair. My daughter has been a little cranky today, which is unusual, shes typically a great baby. Guess they all have their days. Ethan has been a little cranky today, maybe we just all needed a nap. It's been kind of a gloomy day, its cloudy and snowing. I really don't like snow. I don't know why, just not my thing at all. Pretty soon we will be packing up and moving back to Kentucky from Idaho. I am very nervous/excited/scared/sad. I am starting to meet a lot of great people here, but I also miss everyone back east. Jobs just seem more prominent there. At least that is what I am hoping, seems to be working out so far. Guess we will see, just pray for us to figure out what and where we are supposed to be. Life has been so confusing and so frustrating since we got out of the Army. I wont lie when I say I miss not having to choose where we live and what we do. It was so much easier when the Army chose for us. I just want my family to be happy where ever we end up. As long as we are together that's all I care about. It's hard that we are from different sides of the country, his family wants us here and mine wants us there, kind of makes you want to to pick somewhere no one is. We both really like living in Kentucky, well back east. So hopefully this is the right choice. Sorry, I am rambling on and on. This is just the best way for me to "talk". My emotions have been crazy lately, which means I have been frustrating my husband more and more. So I think this will be a better release.
Writing about feelings has always been a good way to vent for me. Once things are written down they seem to lose some of their power. Better to write them down than say something you might end up regretting. You must be going through plenty of emotions with just having moved to Idaho, now moving to Kentucky, and having a new baby. And having your husband just come home from Afghanistan not that long ago. That's a lot of changes in your life all within just a few months.
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